I was physically tired by the time evening rolled around. I joined Kinrgy yesterday and did two classes this morning. It had been a long time since I have moved my body like that, so I felt that “good” muscle soreness soon afterwards. Tonight’s walk was short. My mind wandered, drifting into that space of daydreams, b…

Puccini’s DNA results from Wisdom Panel came in this morning. It was bittersweet because it would have been nice to review the results with her here, but it was still cool to learn a little more about her. Fun fact: eight (!) breeds were detected in her DNA! The internal medicine vet called and helped me understand mo…

Tonight, I took another jaunt around the neighborhood. I went earlier because rain was expected after seven o’clock. In the spirit of adventure and curiosity, I followed a different route through the developments behind us. I started to speed walk mindlessly until thoughts of Puccini reminded me to slow down, especial…

Yesterday, I felt guilty for not crying as much as I had been and for getting along as well as I have been. I finally shared Puccini’s passing with Tanya’s CKD Support Group. I had been avoiding the group for fear of being told that I messed up, essentially confirming that awful feeling that I have been carrying all w…

Two days after Puccini’s passing, I regained clarity and focus. A couple of months ago, I thought that I needed to press forward with my art in a different way. I started making changes with domains and site layouts, and then the site went completely stagnant. I cited stressful life events as excuses, but, really, I h…

Another walk through the neighborhood, later than yesterday’s jaunt. I had my phone this time. I thought of Puccini again and her recent obsession with windows. Then, I remembered that she had been on the streets before she was found. Who knows for how long? I imagined her walking down the lane, low to the ground, clo…

I was having an okay day until I received several emails from Healthy Paws, notifications that they had completed any open claims. The automated messages on the later ones were altered to express their condolences after seeing that Puccini had been euthanized, and they informed me that they canceled Puccini’s policy. …